my thoughts & me.

tonight when i was walking through

the forest in the dark

it was just my thoughts and me.

and it's not something new,

because usually it's just us,

and it's always

quieter than i can handle.

it was cold out today and even more tonight,

especially when i was thinking

about how much warmer

i felt before.

but i'm always going back

and forth.

and maybe it's my fault that it's like this

because i know i'm always

running away,

but never running to.

it's just a long distance

that i travel alone.

one more night goes by,

and one more day,

when the sun rises.

and everything seems a little

hazy now.

maybe i just need to put things

into focus.

or maybe i will just

circle in regret

for every decision that i make,

and every moment that

i relive.

it's not really the way i want

to live my life.

but until i reach a point

when i can handle pain

i will just be here

in this forest

taking pictures

so that i can have something

to hold on to,

when it's just my thoughts

and me.