Thursday, September 23, 2010

fragments

a million little pieces
a million little lies
a million little people
trying a million tries

a cold dark place
a cold dark face
a cold dark night
needs a warm embrace

a safe quiet room
a safe quiet doom
a safe quiet gloom
keeps a girl in tune

if you want
if you thrive
if you live
while you die

does it matter in the end
does it matter to a friend
does it matter if we blend
does it matter, can we mend?

gently, slowly repeating
gently, slowly receding
gently, slowly grieving
grey and dull in meaning.

back and forth
back and forth
back
back
gone.


everything is just a copy of nothing.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

mercy

how do you
change who you are
what you've become
how do you
go where you've been before
feel when you've hurt before
smile when everything has gone wrong

how do you
mould how you think
what they've done
how do you
become when you're broken
live when you're dying
trust when you have been let down

how do you
see what is good
who is true
how do you
stay gentle through pain
love when you hate
give them a chance
to undo what's been done

modest mouse - lives

everyone's afraid of their own life
if you could be anything you want
i bet you'd be disappointed, am i right?
no one really knows the ones they love
if you knew everything they thought
i bet that you'd just wish that they'd just shut up
well, you were the dull sound of sharp math
when you were alive
no one's gonna play the harp when you die
and if i had a nickel for every damn dime
i'd have half the time, do you mind?
everyone's afraid of their own lives
if you could be anything you want
i bet you'd be disappointed, am i right?
am i right, am i right, am i right?
am i right, am i right, am i right?
and it's our lives
it's hard to remember, it's hard to remember
we're alive for the first time
it's hard to remember, we're alive for the last time
it's hard to remember, it's hard to remember
to live before you die
it's hard to remember, it's hard to remember
that our lives are such a short time
it's hard to remember, it's hard to remember
when it takes such a long time
it's hard to remember
it's hard to remember
my mom's god is a woman and my mom, she is a witch
i like this
my hell comes from inside, comes from inside myself
why fight this?
everyone's afraid of their own lives
if you could be anything you want
i bet you'd be disappointed, am i right?


Tuesday, September 7, 2010

friendship

snapped.
kicked.
the fight.
broke.
removed.
the girl.
destroyed.
spayed.
the bitch.
nasty.
dirty.
the creature.
abandoned.
betrayed
the friendship.
scarred.
hurt.
the usual.
lift.
rebuild.
the soul.
lesson.
moral.
the trust.

\

there is no you, there is only me.
only.
only.



Monday, September 6, 2010

girl.

rain taps
runs down the glass
a small lamp
a small light
shadows on a small girl

slow flicker
a backdrop glow
a dark room
a dark night
melodramatic dark girl

loud sirens
disrupt the calm
a loud city
a loud life
a seemingly silent girl

another hour
ticking time away
a long minute
a long second
the short life of a girl




if...

if the world is collapsing
if we are just returning to the earth
if we are just dust

if the world is collapsing
if i breathe in, am i alive?
if i jump, do i care?

if the world is collapsing
if you reach, do we connect?
if you turn, do you reject?

if the world is collapsing
if they run, does it save?
if they stay, does it conquer?

if the world is collapsing
i am just here
out of place
displaced
replaced