grace

telling

the spinning

seeing

hearing

listen

the vibrant

vague

colours

she reaches

strives

misses

its not what you know

its who you know

& how you know them

nothing is permanent.

nothing is exact

nothing is worthy

nothing can be taken back

i saw a small ocean

a heart

the calm

i saw a mother

i saw a mom

i saw her care

i saw a difference

i saw her grow

i saw her presence

i saw a life

i saw a plan

i saw a man

with a gun in his hand

it's night now

it's morning

it's different

it's pouring

a scratch

a hiss

i'm sure it sounds boring

i'm not

what you want

who you are

who you love

i'm not

the light

the shadow

above

i'm just a girl

just a person

just a piece

of the life that you've hoped for

the life that you've seen.

tomorrow is now

but it feels like it's passed.

i dont care if you stay

i dont care if it lasts.

i want to be far

away from your place

i want to be strong

without your grace.

my mother, my brother, my sister, my friend.

i'm not who you thought i was,

please don't pretend.

i want to be alone now,

happy with me.

i want to be alone now,

please set me free.